music: Kalm/lyrics: Kaya


A kind person’s voice, dear to me
Rings buzzing around my ears
“I’ve become disillusioned with you”
While eating away at them do I stay alive

I’ll draw spirals in a futile dream
Where I was searching for the arms
Which ripped me, sweetly tore me apart,
And also held me tight
As I start descending down....

The clear blue sky, painfully bright
Seems as if to crush my eyes
While my arms with which I lay myself out bare
Have no power any longer
I stand and hang my head

I’ll quietly rot away

My wrists so hot they start to ache

A kind person’s voice, dear to me
Rings buzzing around my ears
“I’ve become disillusioned with you”
While eating into him I stay alive
As long as I hurt him, so dear to me
I’ll continue dying still

Why was it I’m singing again?
What meaning is there to my voice?

[I believe in you]
The phrase settles deep in my ears
And resounds there in futility,
As if I could continue the dream

The scene’s gone wrong somehow

A kind person’s voice, dear to me
Rings buzzing around my ears
“I’ve become disillusioned with you”
While eating into him I stay alive
As long as I hurt him, so dear to me
I continue dying

Why-ever do I have this body?!
How hideous it is
What’s this thing floating in the mirror before me?
There’s no meaning to anything anymore
A rusted birdcage
And me, my wings snatched away, voice worn

I’ll draw spirals in a futile dream
Where I was searching for the arms
Which ripped me, sweetly tore me apart,
And also held me tight
I fall further into the darkness still…

Fall further and further still…

As stated, if there's a problem with me uploading my translation, those concerned know how to contact me if anything's wrong....

But thinking about this, and about how Kaya said it was part of his own experiences, heartbreak, and assuming this really IS written from experience, I'm not sure what to say. It's a very strange song. It reminds me of "Corroded Cage", which reminds me in turn of this song:
Mimori Yusa - Little Bird
Just, if the person cares enough to be disillusioned by him, then doesn't that mean he cares about him too?
Like usually when I don't care about someone at all, I wouldn't bother thinking about them enough to feel much of anything towards them. I might stick their head on a mopbunny and be like "haha! Now who's elite?! XD" and then forget about them and how I did that until now.